Everything

It so close to the examination now but I still post until the last day. Till now I can modify in blogger a little bit and it so hard to me to do like this I don’t know why may be it because of my brain block of this thing. After I post this every week every month but it must be on semester that I must wrote it. I think someday I just became a writer. A lot of compose work that I do in this semester made me improve my writing my brain. I appreciate that my English teacher assign me to do this work and neither the other. But sometime I can’t think what am I post ? my motion my brain don’t want to. Everything gone so fast like my post in every Sunday I must post in the evening and toke the time so much sometime 1 hour sometime 1 and 20 minute after I finish it I feel like thrown the rock from my chest and next Sunday I feel it again it like the day after tomorrow it was not gone one week it was very fast. So I had a duty I must do it best no matter what that will be. In my plan I need to past this course in one time because when I am in ABAC I was study English course so many time sometime I study in same course twice time but never more than twice time. My friend had finish English many friend it left me and some of my friend still studying. When I fail in English course I loose a big money like throw it away and loose my time. When I put Eng in my course it make me to go to university at least 3 day per a week. And I want to know what would you do if you are me? Sometimes someday I was lazy I want to stay home stay with my girlfriend but Eng course make me go to university. Study again and again every week until I finish the last course. What a boring ooh Jesus please help me this world so cruel to me the luck isn’t on me. Someday luck is on me someday I swear. And I swear to god and swear to myself one day I will be achieve and climb to peak of the life that everyone want to do like me and I will be the one. And this time I aspire to write it until end but it so long to write it until finish the condition that I follow it practice my patient and my skill. Every time I won it and I won always so this time I’ll win it again and I hope it every time. I must try and try do it again and again and the again more and more etc. in this point it until finish the condition so I feel happy and the last thing is I finish it bye bye.

well well well

I don't know what to say what to do whatever thing. just a boring do same thing same action same everything in this whole world. Oh no happy in the morning get the trouble in the evening gone crazy in the night. It is the same daily thing I do every day after I seen the world. But something had change is my motion and my body and the knowledge. The same that I had found in my body was I still the man. Everything that someone or everyone do same and do often always someday they found that it gone to the peak and then they want to stop that and finish it so do I.

Now I lost something but I want to write it down for some one who read it and feel like me but it is a sad story When I said I needed you, You said you would always stay. It wasn't me who changed but you, And now you've gone away. Don't you see that now you've gone, And I'm left here on my own. That I have to follow you, And beg you to come home. You don't have to say you love me, just be close at hand. You don't have to stay forever, I will understand.Believe me, believe me, I can't help but love you, But believe me, I'll never tie you down. Left alone with just a memory, Life seems dead and so unreal. All that's left is loneliness, There's nothing left to feel. It very sad to me but now

And I want to take this lyrics to everyone who want to read it again is “ Let it be me ”
bless the day I found you
I want to stay around you
And so I beg you, let it be me
Don't take this heaven from oneIf you must cling to someone
Now and forever, let it be me
Each time we meet loveI find complete love
Without your sweet love what would life be
So never leave me lonelyTell me you love me only
And that you'll always let it be me
Each time we meet loveI find complete love
Without your sweet love what would life be
So never leave me lonely
Tell me you love me onlyAnd that you'll always---let--it be—me

now I think you don’t understand with this thing about I wrote it but I want to tell everyone who see it. But how I do with the some situation which I never knew and it hard to bear it. It is not easy way to through it so let it be. What it be let it be. It make me have a experience. So forgot it let start the new thing and new feel without everything that try to erode your heart all the time. I must left it in the back and cross it and never think about it. So I’ll do my best

Boring

I just want to say boring. And you know what am I boring, what when where why who whom which any question attack to me all the time all the question focus to me only. Just a fucking boring with this shit. Why I face the trouble all the time all the day, at least I can learn from this shit. It’s make me strong make me survive from the fucking bad situation. This world is so cruel to me and to everyone who live in this world. How can everyone solve this problem? It’s the method to throw of the trouble. Easy question is your experience make your take it and your brain and your heart. Sometime someone bring the shit in to his or her brain and heart the they said that why I face the problem all the time and huge problem? Because they do it with themselves.

So I know that the problem is nothing or problem is problem, I can explain with this. The first you must understand the problem? and the second you must know how the problem happen with you? and the third is how can you manage with the problem. How can I understand problem? It very easy to fix it by think that everyone in this world have a problem same you and no one in this world which the problem didn’t face with them. If you can understand with this you can pass rule number one. And next mission is how the problem face with you? It seem not necessary but the reason is you walk to the problem or the problem face with you by you don’t invite it, if you can solve it again you can pass to the last rule is manage the problem. I think this way fix is make your mine empty and without everything that erode your heart and you must use your brain to manage with it.

Now I have a way to solve my problem but now I still have a problem. I realize that the problem never give up to you. You must get rid of it. The most I boring is the work it’s mean a lot of work. A fucking crazy huge work make me sick holy shit ! but I still have a responsible and the discipline. I can not abandon that two thing although I think it’s a shit and if I do the best will I get a gift or the fucking price whatever. I try to take boring thing out of my brain but it still stuck in my mind and in my brain like a black spot is in the fucking big room. Maybe some one don’t give it a shit and it make them pleasant. But I have a point in my mind it make me do it. Like a benefit I believe that nobody in the world do something without hope of benefit, some time them hope more than that maybe big profit. So it is the simple thing to do that.